@lexus-amanda-an0n

the pretty reckless - kill me.
 
hello lovelies.
happy easter to you all.
hope you're all enjoying it.
 
i'm not really in a good mood today, don't know why, i'm just.. ugh. so sorry if i seem a little off to you.
i'll probably go chill and play guitar hero for a bit.
but still message me.

been in a pierce the veil mood today.
 
and i want a kitty..
vicky, can we have a kitty? pretty please? c':
 
so yeah, my day has been ineventfuuuul.
cause i'm so boring, i have no life c'x
 
so message me c:

- so hayley showed me this last night, i found it inspirational. she showed me @h4roldstyl3s's one and truth be told, it hand me in tears. so the credit goes to him.
 
- when i first started on polyvore - about a year or two ago, i had a personal account, everything was all happy back then, then the anon accounts started joining. so i started talking to a few of them, i think the first one i ever talked to was one of the first bieber anons, we became really close so we called ourselves brother and sister.
then i became sisters with the first ever emma watson anon, she was practically like my twin, we would tell each other everything, gossip all the time, doing what girls do. then a joint harry and louis account became friends with the both of us and we all became great friends.
then i met louis on a one direction anon, we hit it off and became a couple, everything was going great, i was making new friends, i was happy.
my friend wanted to join so she became a sierra kusterbeck anon.
then my cousin decided to join it and pose as my " brother ".
everything started going down hill after that, me and louis would always argue. blame things on eachother..then i cheated on him, which made things even worse, the arguing got so bad. then one day i found out i was pregnant, god i was so happy and so was louis, he then proposed and i of course said yes.
but after the baby was born, everything went down hill agian, i cheated on him again so we decided to have a break. to say i was a wreck would have been an understatement.
then this idiot joined { @andy-biersack-anon } we started talking and became really close, he became a brother to me, whenever i got angry he would always hug me even when i was hitting him in the chest he would still hug me, tell me everything will be okay and sing to me to calm me down.
then me and louis got back together, we worked everything out, and wanted to get married as soon as possible. so that night we were going to get married, but he left me down the isle. just left without saying anything.
i stayed on that account for a while, then when andy disappeared i just broke down, i pretty much abandoned that account.
 
- in the same year i joined the sierra account, becoming charlavail. i wasnt there for the dating, i actually helped people, saved a few lives and made even more great friends, then we became friends with a juliet simms anon { @anon-juliet-simms } and we had a blast, everyday was a party, just us three and not a care in the world at all, we were like the powerpuff girls cx
then i met a alex gaskarth anon on a joint account with blake harnage, we were practically glued to the hip, we were best friends. i slowly started to fall for him, i never told him until i felt like i could, which was too late, he was engaged to someone else. so i told him how i felt and that i was happy for him and his fiance, he understood then we slowly stopped talking, i thought i did something wrong so i barely went on that account, i still talked to the friends i had on there but i just wasn't myself anymore.
 
- i created another anon account, but deleted it after about a month because of all the abuse i was getting, getting called a wh-ore and such, all because my friends were mostly guys.
 
- so i came to the conclusion that i would leave the sierra and charlavail account, became a hayley williams anon, then deleted it, became a taylor swift anon, then deleted it, became a taylor jardine anon, then deleted it.
 
- i went back to being charlavail, and created this account. i started talking to all my old friends again, and made new ones. but nothing was the same, everything had changed drastically. but i slowly started to get back into the swing of things. but i was suffering with depression, panic attacks and anxiety which made me and still makes me feel like a freak, makes me feel helpless.
then i met jesse, we talked for a while then started going out, everything was getting better, i was feeling more human again, i was happy but i wasn't at the same time. then he told me he was leaving, god it hurt. i cried for three days, thinking that everyone close to me leaving was my fault, that i was doing something wrong, so i took it out on myself, i cut myself for the first time in months, i felt more ashamed of myself, cause i promised andy i wouldn't do it but i couldn't help it, i just broke down.
when andy came back, i practically freaked out, he was my bro and hadn't talked to him in like a year, so we started talking again i didn't tell him about the cutting at first but one night i just broke down and told him everything. he understood and helped my patch up, he became my support.
then i became friends with his girl, jenna who is now nessa cx { @y0urhudg3ns } we became sisters and helped eachother through everything, it was great having a sister again.
 
- then i met vic. we became great friends at first, messing around, having a laugh, enjoying each others company. i was slowly becoming myself again, smiling more, having barely any panic attacks, barely going into my depressed mood. i was getting better. then andy told me that vic had a crush on me. i was honestly surprised that he did. but i wasn't ready for a relationship, when i told him i could see that he was hurt and truth is it hurt me. so i talked to ness about it. she helped. then over time i realised i had fallen for him, i'd fallen hard. so we became a couple. he was the only thing i needed to make me happy, he was my rock. he then asked me to marry him, i said yes but on the inside i was screaming in pure happiness and now we're married and happily in love.
 
- i know it's not as bad as some other anon stories, but this is mine. it still hurts me knowing that all this has happened. but things happen for a reason, and i found my happy ending.

- still into you ~ paramore -
 
well afternoon darlings.
bleh, i have a sore throat.
not nice at all.
so i'm off school for two weeks cause its the easter holidays or spring break as its known in america.
so i'm lying in bed watching movies with hayley{ @yourhayley } and nicky, we're currently watching lord of the rings cx yes we are LOTR geeks don't judge.
so yeah.
message me c:♥.